Well, I see I've gotten quite a lot of watchers over the past couple of months or so. Wow. . I'd like to thank you all for watching me. I greatly appreciate it, especially after the tough college semester I went through.

And thanks for all the kind messages I've received about my last journal entry, even though I no longer feel that way. You've all inspired me to post more photography and also take more photographs (though it helps that I got a shiny new camera for Christmas ). I guess I really underestimate myself as a photographer, especially since I'm still an amateur. But I tend to do that, because I always compare myself to "the best" and think that if I'm not on par with the best, I might as well not bother. I have a massive inferiority complex, not just with photography but with everything I do.

Which kind of goes into a bit of a mini-rant and some thoughts. Ever since June or so, I've been obsessed with watching Let's Play videos on YouTube, and a lot of the people I watch have inspired me to try my hand at creating my own Let's Play videos. They make it look so easy on YouTube, in the same way that writers make writing look easy. Like anyone could pick up a camera and record themselves playing video games. I learned something similar about modern-day documentaries in my documentary class last semester, and that certainly didn't help matters much.

I'm quickly learning that this "anyone can do it" mentality is complete and total bullshit.

Really, I probably shouldn't be complaining. I absolutely refuse to use emulators, because I find them pointless if I already own the game. I just prefer playing real games for the same reason I prefer reading paper books over reading them on a Kindle. You just lose "something" when you play the game on an emulator, in my opinion. If I was a little more lenient on the use of emulators, all I'd need to do is buy a good microphone and download Audacity or something.  But I'm not, and the only other option is to spend (it seems) several hundred dollars worth of money on hardware and software, something I can't do, because being a college student, I don't have a lot of money. I'm assuming a lot of these people who do Let's Plays in the latter way are college graduates with jobs and a crap ton of money already, and I just don't have that luxury.

That also kind of goes into my inferiority complex. I feel like if I was going to attempt these, then I have to make them amazing, especially since I know the YouTube crowd is quite harsh. So yeah. "Anyone can do it" my ass.

I don't even know why I'm talking. I probably shouldn't, but I don't know. I just feel let down, I guess.

Sorry if I wasted your time with this post. It's probably quite selfish.